Selasa, 10 Februari 2015

Up to Me

Well, this time I don't wanna give information or post something useful. I'm stress, well in the positive and negative point of you. I just wanna write anything,  so I can be a little bit ease. By the way, I'm sorry if there's so many mistakes in this posting. I can't speak English well, actually I'm really bad in English (and more terrible in Arabic and Japanese just  can introduce myself, lol ). I usually use Google translate when I wanna read or translate something from IND-ENG and reverse. So, don't push yourself to understand it, okay. But today I just wanna write without any help from Google Translate and other similar application. Not Because of I wanna make my English skill sharpen but because I'm stress. this hole week I'm reading journals in English. it makes I head spinning and dazzling...... Oh God please help me to translate it. I need so many hours just translate it, not to understand it,,, and need much more time to understand it. my hands was always bringing dictionary and I still haven't found what I search/want/need ( this is  the source of my stress)..... now I'm at my limit, and this is one of my habit, write everything in English without care with the Grammar, Tenses,,  and any other rules. (really, really don't care). you may try it, this can relieve you a little bit, and playing musical instrument can do too.Well the second thing that make me stress is because I'm stubborn ,,,,,,,,,,, when I have a goal, I'll try it no matter what, even if it is almost impossible  for me and even there's no one believe I can do it. But I still try it as long as there's a possibility ( Because I believe with that kind of miracles). well my stubborn can be a good thing and also annoying for me. Because my emotion will push my brain to do much more extra exercises (I think it is "Hiperbola aka lebay" in Indonesia) I hate it,,, I really hate super tired.... it is like there are 2 me in my body, the one say " come on Riani, you can dot. you have to try harder, harder, and harder than before and the other me say, " I don't wanna do that, please someone stop me cause I can't stop myself......." so complicated and I hate complicated because my brain is just average. it's really trouble me....

well I think enough,,, I'll find my way to solve my problem somehow...... ( I really like  the phrase "We'll do it somehow". it's one of word that heard when I was little. I heard it on one of my favorite anime, and the one that said it was one of my favorite  character  ^smile^ ) 

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